INTRO
D Bm G A
VERSE D Bm
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
G A
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
D Bm
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
A G A
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
D Bm
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
G A
Took your soul out into the night.
D Bm
It may be over but it won't stop there,
A G A
I am here for you if you'd only care.
D
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
Bm
You changed my life and all my goals.
G
And love is blind and that I knew when,
G A
My heart was blinded by you.
D
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Bm
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
A
I know you well, I know your smell.
G A
I've been addicted to you.
CHORUS
D
Goodbye my lover.
Bm
Goodbye my friend.
G
You have been the one.
G A
You have been the one for me.
4 weeks. 4 days. 14 times a day (to prevent neighbours throwing rotten eggs and George throwing cold comments..). More than 40 times of try. I know I can do it. Just for you... =]
Everyone has left the office for the well-deserved 1-2 hours lunch but here I am, sitting in the office, trying to sort out my Bangkok trip before Wed.
We have been working too hard...surely. It seems like a break is needed, long or short..someone has to decide. Someone has decided to take a short break while someone else has taken one with infinity period.
She quitted.
I foresee my jobscope expanding, and expanding in a week time, and maybe lasted for at least 6 months time. Am I ready for this challenge? I'm not sure.
To be honest, I have already sacrificed my social circle for my career. My days revolve around work, just work and more work.
I don't have time to meet up with friends, unless they come up to my place for a drink or something.
I don't have time to even make a trip to town to do my eyebrow - it has been too long. Tonight might be an opportunity. Right.
I dont have time to check my bills, so I paid everything without even knowing what is it.
I don't have time to think if I am making the right decision or not, because right or wrong, at least I decide on something.
I don't have time to think if I have treated you right or wrong, because I only have this much of time to love those who matter to me.
I am a little lost. I am not lying.
But in the circle of random unknowns and uncertainties, I strive to be stronger. It makes me a stronger person ever. I take what comes and make the best out of it. I don't need any comfort from anyone because I know I can do this myself. But along the way, I am very sure that there are some people that were neglected, some facts and truths that were ignored, and some feelings that were kept deep down inside. Not for anyone else to know.
I am not a person who like to explain things. And feelings.
I rather do it my way.
These few things have been kept in my heart for a while, waiting for the right opportunity to be released.
And so, today, here it goes...
1/ YOU. I'm worried for you. For anything, everything. You didn't know how I love you as a friend. You think I am trying to surpass you in everything. You're wrong. I remember I have mentioned it so many times to you that, no one is better, just that everyone is different. We all have our own uniquness and special traits that no one else has. I love you. As much as I still want to hang out with you, I feel that the connection between us has been broken. To what extent- I don't know. Because of what- I don't know. I just know that you can do so much better than this, and this is what I have always hoped for. I am glad you did brave, you did well. I am very proud of you. But for other things, lets put them aside and just think about how to be a better person.
2/ YOU. I loved you. I am sorry if reading my blog, hurts you. Hurting you, is the last thing I ever want to do. Those lovely days, those good memories, those sweet promises from you, and everything you have done for me - I remember. I remember it everyday. But now, I think it's time to put a stop and see where are we going next. It ain't so bad afterall. I know we still love each like we used to.
3/ YOU. You have grown so much and so far that I can't recognise you anymore. You're so pretty now. Do you still remember those funny moments we shared a long time ago? Do you still remember how you used to make me laughed and laughed and laughed till I fell down the staircase and stood up and laughed again? I never forget about you and us. I am sorry if I made you think I have given up on our friendship. I never. I just dont know how to save it now.
Sometimes, we just don't know who we are anymore..when we are so caught up in our own lives. I am sorry. Really, sorry. For not being there.
A good swim.
A good plate of fried rice with lotsa ikan bilis.
A good tasty bubble tea drink.
A good smoke after dinner.
A good rub on the feet.
A good time of not having to do your own laundry.
And the best thing in life? Having all of them in one good evening.
Time for booze. :)
I am glad I didn't go home and rot. The Book Cafe is definitely the place if you're looking to get serious work done.
Love TBC on Sundays. :)
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I am sorry for being ignorant, but do you cough/sneeze a lot if you get swine flu?
It is the hottest topic for now - every TV channels are reporting about this swiiinnnne flu, like seriously, everyday.
The custom is ridiculous too. They planted some obstructions coupled with some temperature machines to scare the shit out of us. I almost tripped when walking past that stupid door that looks like those in the butcher house. Aiks, you know what I am talking about. =/
I totally have no idea how to fix my stomache already. I didn't skip a single meal yesterday. Chicken rice for lunch, chocolate ice cream and earl
grey for tea, hawker foods for dinner. I was perfectly fine! Then it strikes again. I was literally wetting the whole bed with sweats, and rolling left
and right but fortunately, I did not just die off like that. I believe the medicine I am taking has lost its power, the evil ones are immune to it already.
Gastric flu - never underestimate it.
So doc said, 'You get to enjoy your regular gastric flu if you still eat your breakfast at 12pm, lunch at 4pm, tea at 8 pm, and dinner at 11 pm.'
Never underestimate the eating time too. Seriously.
And, thank you, you saved me, again.
2 more hours to the most productive day of the week. What am I thinking about?
Chionggg ah!
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Boss rushing for presentation.
Hundreds of other things to do.
Sucky pricing needs to be done like now now now.
BD and PD all jumbled up together.
Services providers want to screw you up.
Banks are not helping.
Transaction retrieval needs money.
Ridiculous demands.
Late night USA calls.
Not enough sleep and coffee supply.
Tell me how sucky Mondays can be.
You tell me.
Fuck man.
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