After so long, I still can't help but to think that...
I let you get the best of me.
But you never were the best for me.
The day I thought I'd never get through,
I finally got over you.
Great. Trips are always good.
Inspiring. Aspiring.
Always manage to put a smile on my face.
30Apr-3May - REDANG!
13May-17May - BANGKOK!
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I've been trying to stop the cynicism in me by trying to feel happy for
something, someone, anything, anyone.
I wish I can do a better job but I know I suck at this.
It has been a rough week so far, since last Sunday.
My heart aches everytime I listen to my heart.
It was devastating. It was more than that.
But it still remains indescribable.
I loathe 6 pm. I loathe these few hours.
These few hours...are kinda like you know, the hours you decide whether to
'go out', 'go home' or 'work overtime'.
I wish there is someone who plans my day for me.
'After work, we are going to catch a movie, or have a drink.' he used to plan it for me.
I miss him.
I am missing him.
When he was around, we can just hang out and do nothing at all.
Looking back at those days, I can't stop the tears.
I didn't know it'd be so bad. I really didn't know.
I miss him.
Now, I have only RED.
You know, it's really hard to keep a dog. He woke me up at 6 am this morning with oinks and that frightened me. When I came back from shower, he poo-ed and pee-ed in my room. I was late for work for half an hour because he stood beside the road, refused to move.
But you know the best part behind all these troubles, I once again felt not lonely anymore when I woke up this morning, finding 'someone' is sleeping beside me. At least, I am not alone. I can't be lonely. It's not that bad. I wish when all the bad things are over, I can finally stand up proud again and continue this life with more happiness.
Now, I just wish that work goes well, Red eats his foods, and I still get my Heineken once in a while.
These lonely nights, will go away....
Tommie isnt such a chore compared to Red. Maybe because Tommie has many many many people looking after him and my job is like...errr..play and just play with him. You know this thing about dog.. they are the best pick up tools you ever had! Never underestimate them really. Red doesn't need a lot attention, in fact he is a calm and friendly poodle. I like him because when I am busy with work, he will just sit at one corner, not disturbing me. Lovely.
But now he is asleep and I can't bathe him already. Tomorrow I gotta wake up so early to get him ready to go to work with me. Urgh.
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He is such a doll. And he had so much fun in the office today that when he refused to move at all when we get home. After I forced him to go for a walk so he can poo and pee, now if I'm lying on the bed, he will lie on my carpet. He only moves when I move. What the hell. What a lazy dog.
But he is soooo adorable. :)
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Why is it so easy for you to say 'You Give Up!' when you haven't even asked me!
I am tired of this shit.
You're not the only one who puts in effort in the things we do.
You don't know.
Or you just assume.
Which breaks my heart, really.
Really, breaks my heart.
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